Alrdy made appointment with the dentist, this coming monday will be checking my teeeth!!

Saw dion's blog, aw. Always have my name, like a touched. So gonna update with HER name now, before she complains! See, i'm so kind. Haha, know sweetheart since i was primary5 or 6 maybe? I don't really know how we became friends, but it's cool though. When the clique went separate ways, we are still tgt till now, or maybe forever(: There's always one day of the weekends, we always meet each other. Is like the day she's mine for the whole day. I felt so sux when she miss her ex while i can't do anything. Or maybe next time i should kidnap him and bring him to her. She's the first person i shared what's new with life. I really didn't know we would became so close, but we did, we became closer and closer after days passby. There's a quote saying' noting's forever ' . Nope, maybe she's different. We are meant to be best friends when we are born ed till we are dead. Right sweet?(: Is this long enough to compare for your one word ' sweetheart ' in your blog?!

Well..hello! Since I'm updating for sweetheart, i shall update bout today horrible torture in school yea. Anyw, saw a tumblr picture with pink dslr. I got the temp to turn my dslr into pink, i swear! Well the period before assembly was such a torture thanks to the guy classmate kick balls around the class like fools and cause the fan being hit, cause us being in the classroom without fans and just hot air, cause the window is being shut too. And we carry on having lessons like per normal standing up. Making me sweat like hell,  i rather go gym or maybe run the entire Singapore than standing with hot airs.

Chinese is being such a bitch.... you know why? I got Chinese oral today and i speak many English and i think i got the rights to say i almost skip the whole passage of words. Teacher even caught me cheating by asking my pass by friends how to read that word. Haha, hope she give chances then. If i would to choose, i rather the another one, the guy one. He gave me good marks when i speak total 98% of english and i chose being honest and told him i super hate Chinese when his a china! Well, i'm just being honest since I'm born ed up with the words ' not to lie ' . So ya, didn't go out today, and maybe tomorrow. Exams around the corner, i gotta start practicing. Math have a new chapters , alegbra. I done that in primary school before, but it seems so hard the easy you know. And it's like boom, i was alittle sleepy when the new chapters is exposed. Forced myself to wear my specs on and look at the whiteboard listening. Worst of all, i accidentally walk quickly and didn't get to sit with my girlfs when it's assembly time. suxedup. And i'm carrying a box with full of books and files from my desk. Such a bitch....

I'm just waiting, waiting for the day you text me.

 She's your everything ,isn't it. We just stop contacting, for her. Isn't it. We drifted. For her. Isn't it.

 Yes, permed hair, but it's temp only! Test only, i think i would perm it when my hair reaches my butt there? Haha, so so, around there can alrdy. I look so old when i let it down, wtf. Today went to whitesands , supposed to check my teeth for braces! But the dentist didn't came, not my luck. Can't wait for it can, but just alittle afraid of the injection ( if there is) . Oh, no. I'm srsly afraid, not just alittle bit. Holy. Gonna studyhard for exams! It's around the corner, freaking suxup for the chinese oral, confirm one.Bitchoff.

This is fucking nice, right.

I'm gonna own this room by myself someday, mark my words.

I felt that happiness, just for alittle while & it's gone cause i realise noting is forever, really noting.

It's impossible to be happy forever. It's impossible to be sad forever, lucky forever, unlucky forever. I'm not smiling, but i'm not crying either. Life, i'm alrdty used to it. I build up walls around my heart, srsly , i'm not lying. I became a bitch with worst attitude, just to protect myself for getting hurt. Is that i wanted? Of cos not, who don't wish to fall in love. But, i'm afraid of falling out of love too. Yup, some are strong to overcome these. But i'm not the some of them, i'm totally a weak ass. Maybe some could stand my attitude, or maybe none . Not only this, when i saw guys hurting some other strangers girls. I really feel like walking up there & giving a slap to him. Totally understandable feelings to the girls.

Just, who don't wish to find their truelove (: I wished i have mine.

Why can't you just make me happy for once by denying when i say i'm not important.

Studying is fun actually, first time going out to study. Met dion, went to terabite to study since mc cafe is full. I can't make myself study, i just kept talking&talking , it's freaking funny when the blinkblink thing started, i'm alittle over active. Went to have lunch at bbq chicken, suggested by dion. They have the mtv when the kpops dancing. When me & dion just went~ doing the same thing they do, shy. Haha, even worst, we sat near the glass when everybody can sees. I ordered the dk what meatball, it sucks, 5spoons &i've enough. The worker asked me what's wrong with the food... and i turn speechless. Went to burgerking to study, then mc cafe, finally.I slept awhile till dion shake me.  Walked around ehub , then bus back to house downstair. Talked to shan awhile & homed. Mightnight movie later with family! Alittle shocking,  i know.

P/s : Specs with lens & degree, not fake.

Quarrel with mummy & returned of phone today. How awesome, shopping2. H&m rock out of me.\m/

After you confessed, the most afraid thing is, the reply of him.

How shall i put in words , my feelings ... Yes. Things changes, noting forever , love just fake. How do you get me acting like this.
My heart just kept aching like there's no tmr. And guess what, i think my teacher wore my earrings.wtf.

He didn't ask me to leave, but he didn't ask me to stay too. It's so, confusing. I thought of leaving and give you peace. But i'm selfish, i wanna stay too. -mia .

I love you . Jesus.

I want you to be there when everybody is not around when i need someone the most,/

This picture really make me lmao. Supercute. Haha! Ok. Let's start with yesterday sunday 11September 2010. The house was so peace, everybody was sleeping when it's alrdy 3pm.Planned to check the braces thingy, but sadly it's closed:( Went marina bay sands for dinner. Then bought chocolates, the price very wrong uh. 20pieces for 46bux. Worth it? No. But still buy it , looks nice. Went lp to see my eyes degree. Well, my left eye was perfect, my righteye alittle.. not clear. First thought = how buy lens. Second thought = what specs . Third thought = suit me anot. For school only i think, i'll never wear out can. Thursday will be collecting!

I hate first day of school, especially attire check. suxedup.
& to be honest, I don't know what's love already. It's so..... fuckedup.

Bought charles & keith bag & wallet today, & sorryshanshan. 
To be continued...

You know you love someone, When you can spend the whole day, accompany them, Just be with them.

I know, epic face. Feel so freaking screwed up right now. I starting to hate guys more & more again, but it doesn't means i'm going to be a lesbian k. lol-ed. Wanted to stay at home and rest since ytd slept around 5am+ But end up meeting dion, went to whitesands to meet her. Extremely tired, lack of sleep. Went to tamp, supposed to be eating ljs. But because of sweetheart, went to bbq . But it's a nice meal though, jerk chicken. Hahaha, next time if your boyfs ditch you. Intro him this food & tell him it's nice. #swag. Walked around, i'm so gonna get c&k wallet soon, it totally got my attention & the iphone leopard phonecase! Met weicong awhile. Then went to find dion's friend which is glenn or glen. Forgotten~ Kept playing with sweetheart, freaking funny. Then around 5+. Went to whitesands cotton on to check something out, but it's not there. Geez. Went to her house, webcam. Haha. Then reached home around 8++

- sorry for not attending the chalet. i didn't mean it.

I'm just fighting for my rights, idc who you're to me right now. Don't treat my kindness as a puddle of shit.

Didn't thought of going out today till my bestfriend messaged me to meet , she needs a listening ear & she chose me, cuz i got her trust of cos. So didn't want-na to disappoint her, i went. Supposed to be 2 only. But umirah & adam came too! :) Get to watch ' the cat ' , i swear it's freaking shocking. Even more shocking, have a cool arguement with 2 people, screwedup mood. No longer have their trust alrdy, nvm it's ok. The cinema, it's so cold. I just step in & i'm already cold. Ended around 5. Started to walk around without air-con places to get the coldness off me. Townpark,whitesands & library, and i swear i'm like a fool there putting the book on my head. Forcing them to do that too, with me, haha. Around 7plus, left. Saw my dearest bestfriend post&picture for me, it's freaking sweet! ♥

I love it when you calls me and said noting , your cuteness are all over my freaking mind.
 

It never seemed like you missed me & I guess because of it, I stopped missing you.

Cuz perhaps i should stop worrying about their comments , i'm not here to pleased you. I'm here to live, to laugh, to be myself. Gossip more? I'm happier. Cause you got so much things to talk about what i've and you don't, jealously kills i know. Cheerup face-less. So to these who speaks unrespectful comments, you should go brainwash & find your face. Such disgrace.

&then to guys. Yep. You guys are supersuper adorable & sweet at the starting ! And all girls starting to fall for you without her knowing. Starting to need you in her(s) life. Sweet-texts.. goodnight messages.. acting like couples. This stops till she confessed or she acted up when you start doing to other girls, same moves, same ways. She jealous. She cried. She starts to annoys you. You hate it, but you still continue talking behind her back. She found out. Quarreled. Boom, You fucking ditched her. She stop trusting love, she starts doing the same way how you to to her to other innocent dashing sweet guys.They got hurt. They start doing the same thing. It continues till you found the girl you finally loves truly. She did the same thing again. And what is it called? KARMA YOU BITCH. ( p/s : not only guys, you can take it as guys to girls and girls to guy )

 Early sunday, woke up around 5am+ . Prepare & off to malaysia for a day. Back home alrdy. ok. And my house or i should say my WHOLE BLOCK. Are full of bees, even my both toliet. lift lobby too. Look out the windows, everybody shuts their doors&windows2. Poorthing. I've a hard time bathing .

It's all me to blame, sorry.

Was it too late to say I love you? I'm jealous ? I miss you? Im dying to talk to you? Waiting for your text? Stalking you everytime ? Looking at your picture & smile? Things are all screwed up because of me. I know it's alittle too late to apologize and say all this. Well, it's alright. You're too good for me. Talking to you otp days&nights. Letting you hear my morning wake up awful voice. Ignoring my friends while talking to you when I'm outside. But..

ignorance is the best way not to quarrel much.

Yesterday i was supposed to go my primary school, pasir ris primary. And when i was bout to leave house, changed of plans. Went to fetch tammy after school with brother. Sorry classmates, next year uh. And i broke that time, no money. So shag. Decided to watch smurfs, so cute , i love clumsy the most, the hero of all even though his the most clumsy till his named clumsy. Ended around 2+ . Walked over to downtowneast's foodcourt. Whenever i go such foodcourt, i'll definitely go for chickenrice or japenese food. So it's chickenrice for the day! Walked around downtown/ehub #likeabored.Saw chanel! Decided to go over dion's house. Left the house together around 6+. Then eat chickenrice for dinner again at the same place.

Sent sweetheart to busstop, accompany her to wait for bus. Then back to ehub kbox level. See my hubby jolyn work. She couldn't talk as her boss was around at the time. she showed me her tongue, i was wtf.. haha. Bought ice cream from her , her boss left, finally. Played kartrider. So chatted. Hannah and one of their friend came over. Chatted&chilled,fun:) Went off, sent tammy home by cab. Then homed. Prepared, went to marinabay accompany brother , kite. I was disturbing all my daddy's friends the phone dismiss message thing. And they know it's me, so not fun. They was the one who see me when i'm drunk. Accomany their childs to play dog&bones. I believe you got play before during primaryschool right! K whatever, i scream and run without fail. Around 11plus, decided to go home, extremely tired.