You just fucking love her , and i got no rights to stop that feelings. I get it buddy, i get. All you want is her.

I go crazy when you hang with her. My j-e-a-l-o-u-s feeling keep coming out non-stop. But i gotta act noting happened, act like i don't care. Why am i torturing myself, i should just forget you and move on. Stupid me. But whenever i was bout to, i kept looking back. What meant to be, will be. I understand the game of love alrdy. It's all just so selfish. Forget or carry on loving you. I don't know, just wait. I'll decide it sooner or later.


 9October 2011
Early morning, went to vivo with family to get my roxy swimsuit. Then head to marina bay sands clubroom hotel since daddy is a member or marinabaysands. We get bigger rooms! Went swimming , but this time. It's more boring than that time. It's getting lame.. i starting to hate swimming alrdy. Whatever, but i still did! Haha.Had our lunch/dinner at mbs too. And that's how we spent our day. P/S: Never overnight as got exams the next day!

10October 2011.
School starts late, and gotta report school by 9.30.Wow, if only my daily schooltiming is this. I'll love school more than how i love him, for sure. I was shocked when i came in the class. My babygirls suddenly all ran towards me and tickle me. But i like! Cause they seems happy when they see me! HAHA.Had like... 30minutes Mothertongue lc and head home? It's like 30minutes only ok , like hello?! Went home and had a nap. When i woke up, i got full leg/arm tattoo-ed by my brother with his blue marker! He just insulted my darling hellokitty, he draw it so ugly!! My leg is full of the word pig. Fuck yea! And my face has blue-moles.. woke up the same time as my mum. Since we both always need afternoon nap! Had lunch then study maths.Was playing with my brother ok, we crashed some tiny paper. And try scoring it in each other mouth! He scored... i didn't :(

11October 2011 (today)
Maths paper1 today, i was so confident! But i realise i didn't bring the materials. Haha, so ran down & buy. Phew, ytd asked brother one question of maths. And it came out today, like a phew only. Hard time walking to whitesands, my shoes was... all wet. And i was drenched. Had kfc breakfast with maegan. Was bout to eat finish already, then nadiah and rest came over! But they came to say hi only! Then after that, went home since we are drenched.


I know, i'm planning it to fast. But who cares! I think imma gonna dye reddish brown with dion & shan! Cause i was wondering should i dye red or brown. And dion told me to dye reddish brown. And it's not bad, it's nice you know! So decided, reddish brown!